22个月了

眼看就要2岁.
想起来娃还要去补一针疫苗. 实在不想去. 怕娃哭, 怕我难受.
这个娃, 从小到大, 吃喝拉撒看病买东西上学, 都是妈一个人顾的, 爹管有空有心情的时候跟他rough housing一下进行点男孩教育.
但是当妈的现在有点顾不了了.
肚子里的老二都没怎么被妈答理过, 胎教? 什么叫胎教来着? 老二谄媚地踢了妈妈一个月了, 妈妈连个笑容都没挤给过人家. 翻看以前怀皙的时候的博客, 那时胎动的时候, 不管妈妈在什么场合, 都忍不住笑容漾起来的.
当然皙的待遇现在也不不如以前. 妈妈没功夫没精力跟他时不时地唠磕唐中文了, 这个娃, 马上就要全面美国了. 现在会说的单词, 80%是英文, 词组, 100%. 然后今天, 连最初学会的一个词, 以为一辈子要被他这么叫下去的, 也改口了:
早晨drop off他在day care, 照例舍不得妈妈走, 每拣起个玩具, 就盯紧了妈, 嘴里叫着 "mommy!"
最后Mommy还是趁他一扭头的功夫溜了. 上了车子, 打着火, 眼泪忽然流下来, 说不出是一种什么复杂的情绪.

去麦当劳吃早餐, 不知道该吃什么, 眼泪竟又涌出来.
开车去学校, 刚到一个路口就赶上变红灯, 没过去, 刹车踩下停在那里, 眼泪又湿了眼.

还是不知道为什么哭. 也许, 是觉得面对一切的一切, 我都那么powerless. 而我还是需要给两个娃提供power的娘.

也许, 我就是pregnancy depression.

Terrible Two

似乎到来了.

也或许是无所不在的devil钻到妈妈的博客上连留言都看了. 看到妈妈夸大宝是老实孩子了.

最近很不老实.
一有不顺意的, 就呲哇乱叫. 脾气很急, 不太肯听道理了.

有个变化, 据说是越来越象爸爸小时候了, 就是缠人(他妈早前夸他不缠人没敲木头).
每时每刻必须有人陪在他身边.
玩小汽车要陪玩儿, 边开边讲开到哪儿了.
看DVD要陪看, 边看边解释演的是啥.
大人说话他要叽歪着打断, 因为疏忽了他. 当然最后这条, 也有立功的时候.

那天物业的人来差房子里的毛病. 因为是妈妈以前贿赂过的'熟人', 特别仔细热情. 主动挑出很多毛病来. 所以临走送了一小盒茶叶表示. 这人就开了话匣子. 从他女儿从日本买过一种什么茶到这个女儿参加的什么国际旅行学习的program, 如何申请, 开多少会, 每次开会都干什么, 他儿子又怎么上columbia, 又怎么是全国击剑队的, 又怎么差一点儿没参加成奥运会, blah, blah, blah

妈妈靠墙边听着, 站得头晕眼花正愁没法打发人走, 小皙同学过来救驾.
一阵'啊啊啊啊'海豚音冲妈妈及客人轰炸过来, 把人炸走了. 妈妈解放. 小皙同学立功一件.

抬杠

经常根妈妈有这样的对话:

"皙皙, 妈妈肚子里有个小弟弟哦"
"妹妹!"
"弟弟", 妈妈抬回来.
"妹妹!" 坚持
"是个弟弟哦, 不是妹妹", 因为一开始的误导, 妈妈很不好意思, 努力纠正.
"妹妹!" 完全没商量.
sigh.

或者:
"皙皙, 弟弟踢妈妈了. "
琢磨了一下, 何方神圣, 敢踢我妈? 想明白是妈妈肚子里那个物事, 继续一根筋:
"妹妹!"
"是弟弟, 不是妹妹"
"妹妹!" 并且面带笑容.
惭愧死妈妈了.

认路

话还不会说, 路, 好象是认的.

有天带皙上幼儿园, 遇见堵车, 妈妈找了条路绕行.
绕行的那7,8分钟里, 小家伙特严肃, 一直瞪着大眼睛左右巡视, 琢磨着我妈这是要把我带哪儿去啊. 根本不注意路上的什么车了.

好不容易绕会以前常走的道儿, 人家认出来了. 立即把头舒服地往后一靠, 放松地指点江山:
"guck!"

不会说话之原因探究

娃他妈脸皮很厚地找到了皙皙同学语言功能落后的理由. 即:
因为妈妈超级善解人意. 皙皙同学的大部分要求, 有时一个眼神, 一个轻哼, 一个小手指头, 妈妈的脑袋就转几道弯明白了, 然后乖乖得令. 所以人家根本用不着学说话啊.

举例:
今天小人儿正全力攀爬椅子山,预备辑此上暖气台子,最终直指窗台.
在这项行动的初级阶段, 妈妈就敏锐地从窗台上>10件物事中锁定了其奋斗的目标: " 皙皙你是不是想要窗台上的水晶星星啊?"
"让爸爸帮你拿吧"
爸爸奉上.
"啊! 啊!"星星到手的小人把玩一番后再发两声娇令.
"皙皙你是不是想让星星照出小彩虹啊?" 妈妈继续善解人意.
皙皙欣慰地表示同意.
"可是今天没有阳光, 不行哎"
一张失望透顶的小脸.
"爸爸带你去弄小彩虹"物理博士出马了.

于是, 小人不用一言一语, 指挥俩博士于颦笑间, 人家学说话干吗?

花果山

最近这个娃登高爬坡的技能全部掌握. 家里一应桌椅台面都已被征服. 搬凳子上桌子, 踩桌子上窗台等绝技都不在话下.
爸爸一日警告: "皙皙你再这样, 爸爸送你去花果山了啊!"

可怜的哥哥

BBS这两天热烈讨论要老二的问题. 其中之一的concern是, 有了老二之后, 老大得到的attention就少了.

皙皙比这更可怜.
因为妈妈的complications, 医生不让抱皙了, 还要减少一切活动.
才20个月的准哥哥, 就再也没有妈妈抱了. 出去玩, 都是奶奶和爸爸带着, 妈妈在家卧床.

好不容易因为搬家刷墙看油漆, 妈妈跟着去了趟home depot, 小人儿象过节一样. 每隔半分钟就兴奋地大叫一声: 妈妈! 那嘹亮的叫声里透出的快乐, 穿透几公里.
整个逛店过程中, 妈妈不能距离宝贝超过1米, 不然就遭到温情抗议.

可是妈妈还是累着了, 第二天母亲节, 因为出血, 不得不又在家卧床, 小人跟奶奶爸爸去水族馆.
五颜六色的鱼儿, 很好看啊, 小小的一个宝, 挤在大孩子中间, 看得目不转睛.
忽然抽出身来, 迷茫地叫起:"妈妈, 妈妈...". 四顾一看, 并没有妈妈的影子, 默默地走开.

奶奶录下了这段录象, 回家放给妈妈看. 强忍着泪, 妈妈好愧疚.

宝贝, 对不起.

对话

放学了, 妈妈关切地询问皙皙同学一天的情况.

"皙皙, 今天在mino那里都干什么了?"
"...", 看一眼后视镜, 一个目光呆滞的娃.

"皙皙, 今天你好好睡觉了么?"
"...", 再看一眼后视镜, 还是一个目光呆滞的娃.

"皙皙, ..." 还没说完呢, 被打断了.
"Guck!", 一个目光如炬的娃小手指着左前方.
"Oh, Truck!" 作第一万次无功的纠正.

"皙皙, 你今天画画了么?"
"Guck!", 一个目光如炬的娃小手指着右前方.
"Oh, a big truck!"

"皙皙, 你今天晒太阳了么?"
"Guck!", 手指着左前方again.
"oh, truck." 我不问你了还不行么!!!!

回到了家, 没truck看了吧.
"皙皙, 你跟Nicky, Brandon他们玩儿了么?"
"..."

"皙皙, Nicky会说话么? 他怎么说话呀?"
"叽哩嘟庐~" 真好听啊, 最后一个音还上扬的声调.

"那Brandon怎么说话亚?"
"叽哩嘟庐~" 真好听啊, 最后一个音还上扬的声调.

"那, 那Jada怎么说话啊?"
"叽哩嘟庐~" 真好听啊, 最后一个音还上扬的声调.

"那, 那Ja'shawn怎么说话亚?"
"叽哩嘟庐~" 真好听啊, 最后一个音还上扬的声调.

和着, 皙皙上的学, 在爪哇国.

Talk, baby, talk

Ciro is sick again. He apparently suffers from some pain somewhere. But he still cannot talk. He woke up crying many times at night but when I offered to hold and comfort him, he violently resisted with harder cry. What do you want, baby? Watching his suffering is a torture to parents.

If he could talk, he could have expressed his frustrations a little bit better so that I know what he wants. He could have shown us where he feels bad, the stuffy nose, or the upsetting stomach, or the teething gum, or a sour throat, or a tingling ear... Now we don't know anything, and it is hard to judge from his actions.

He will be 20 months old soon, an age when most babies start to express themselves much better. But...

I never really worried about the fact that his language skills are developing slower than standard. But when he is sick like this, how I hope that he is a talkative baby and let me know how I can help!!!!!

Please talk, my baby, talk. It hurts to think that there will be more moments like this.

19 months

weight: 28lbs, 73%
height: 33', 60%
head circumstance: 50.5cm, offchart.

度假后重返幼儿园

比刚上的时候还痛苦。

９天的时间跟妈妈家人亲密无间时刻不离， 小人完全不适应被妈妈丢到别人家的状况了。
送到的时候就不肯下地。 小猴子一样紧紧攀在妈妈身上， 腿儿缩得老高不肯沾地面。 人家大人小孩都拿出各色新鲜玩具引诱他， 他还是很想玩儿的。 好几次被引诱了下去， 玩１分钟回过神来， 我如果玩这个妈妈就丢下我走掉， 赶紧冲回来腻在妈妈怀里缩腿儿往上蹭。

如此几次， 实在是矛盾得不行了。 玩具又好玩儿， 又不想妈妈走， 急了。 攥着小拳头发脾气， 脸又瘪得通红， 全身发抖。 并且伤心阿， 大滴大滴的泪珠往外蹦， 可怜得不行。
好不容易劝住了， 妈妈又陪了２０分钟， 趁他玩车集中精力的时候偷偷摸摸遛了。 也不知道他明白过来如何伤心。
妈妈也伤心， 宝贝还是不能理解为什么亲人不能２４小时不离开他。 。小小的人儿， 矛盾成那样， 太可怜了。

脾气见长

有俩星期了。
小家伙会发脾气了。 以前就是个伤心， 傻哭。 现在的情绪是丰富多彩了。 会区分伤心和愤怒。 生起气来有模有样， 捏着小拳头憋得脸通红全身发抖。 还真能吓人一跳， 一不小心就屈服了他的淫威。

懒妈

好久没更新.

儿子好象越来越勤快了 (懒妈憧憬窃笑ing~)

会干的第一个活, 是给妈妈扔垃圾.
偶然的, 那天妈妈从自己劣质毛衣上揪了一手的毛线球球, 窝在椅子上懒得起身去扔.
一个小不点儿正好流蹿到附近. 没有任何expectation: "皙皙, 帮妈妈把这个扔垃圾桶吧?"
小人居然欣然应允, 拿了毛球球就到屋子另一头的垃圾桶去了, 人家居然自己打开桶盖, 扔掉, 再盖上.
动作那叫一个纯熟流畅. 妈心大慰啊! 这个儿子, 悄没声地, 就学会干活了, 我是多么的有福啊!

从那以后, 小人早上睡醒穿好衣服的第一件事儿, 是把自己灌了一夜的沉甸甸的尿布包, 从卧室长途跋涉到厨房, 扔进大垃圾桶.

妈妈唱:
"青青的叶儿红红的花, 小蝴蝶贪玩耍, 不爱劳动不学习, 我们大家不爱他.
要学喜鹊造新房, 要学蜜蜂采蜜糖, 劳动的快乐说不尽, 小皙劳动最光荣!"

17个月

自家量的:
体重: 26.6-0.6(衣)lbs, 59%
身高: 80.9cm, 48%
头围: 50.2cm, offchart
闹半天, 抽个儿是假现象.

吃一欠长一智

周末去人家玩儿. 有个大一个月的小哥哥很agressive, 看皙皙玩儿的玩具, 他都要感一下兴趣.
接连迅疾地抢走了皙皙拿在手里正玩儿的两,三件玩具.
皙皙老实孩子来着, 木木地被抢了就抢了, 都不知道抱怨.
心理大概却记下了, 暗暗较着劲.
待那孩子再要抢皙皙手里的另一个玩具, 憨厚的皙皙攥得死死的, 跟他对抢, 那孩子终于竞抢不过, 闷闷被他妈妈劝退了事.

也有的智, 长得让妈心酸.
还是去人家玩儿的时候, 一直都玩得好好的, 换了好几个场地, 20多号人的大场面, 皙皙都泰然.
后来领去一个玩具琳琅满目的宝宝活动室, 小人儿忽然局促起来, 要哭, 要妈妈抱. 敏感的妈妈明白了. 这个, 是上daycare的后遗症. 以为越好玩儿的地方, 尤其是这么多宝宝玩具的地方, 那有可能妈妈要把他一个人留下自己上班去了. 小可怜儿啊.

Second week

It was said that the first day of the second week could be tough again. But Ciro was all right. It took him a little longer to feel comfortable with the environment and leave my arms to the room, though.

He is quite a cautious baby, taking small steps only to enter the new environment. As I mentioned, he only stayed in the play room for the first week, but now is OK entering the kitchen and the infant room. He can have all his snacks and meals in a high chair in the kitchen with other kids, enjoying the soups Miss Moreno cooked. He successfully had one nap in his crib in the infant room--only once so far though. We'll see how he gets over this part of the transition--napping is the most difficult one.

He did cry upon drop-off today, though, because Jada didn't pay attention when she walked by us and accidentally pushed Ciro to the ground. Poor baby bursted into tears right away and had to spend a couple of more minutes in mom's arms. Hope he can learn to live with other active kids soon.

Wish my baby all the best today. :-)

Forgetting Mommy

It's the third day already!

At drop-off, Ciro didn't cry again. Although hesitating, he finally moved toward the center of the room and left Mommy at the door. Mommy waved good-bye to him without getting any feedback. :-P

His second day was better than first day in terms of crying. His cry time was much less than 20 minutes according to Miss Moreno. He only cried when being lead to other rooms, which he didn't like (i.e., the working room where other kids play with the computer). He ate more than the 1st day but slept less, though. He ate two yogurts for morning and afternoon snacks and had some soup and rice for lunch. So when we got home, he wasn't into any cookie that I tried to offer him. And he didn't have good appetite for dinner as usual (although I managed to feed him 1.5 small bowl of millet congee, 10 small shrimps, and 1/3 of a bell pepper). He only had a 45 minute nap during the day so he fell asleep in the car on our way home.

Some interesting things: he didn't want to go home already when I picked him up on the second day! Miss Moreno's got too many toys. :-) And he seemed to be marking his territory already. Like I said there're a couple of spots in the play room that he liked the most. He expanded those spots to a few others on the second day. It seemed that he has accepted Miss Moreno and Hazel into his circle: when they approach him in his favorite place, he was OK. But when the other kids (Nicky or Brandon) tried to get close to him, he pushes them away. A lonely but powerful leo? haha.

One other thing is that he had been following me wherever I go for a while. Even if I have to go to the bathroom, he needs to be there! :-( But this seems to have changed now. I just tell him where I am and he will keep doing his things and not bother with following me any more. Should I feel happy or a little bit disappointed? hehe

Second day miracle?

So today is the second day.

It is -10 degrees celsius and feels like -19 degrees with windchill, according to weather.com.

Poor little baby had to come out and go to day care. :-(( He was all silent in the car, trying to recover from the coldness. I explained to him a few times on our way that mom has to go to work while he plays at Miss Moreno's. I repeated again and again that there are many many great toys at Miss Moreno's and the little friends all are waiting for him, who are, Nicolas, Brandon, and Ja'shawn (Jada, the only girl at this day care, is having a fever and stays at home these days). He seemed to be listening seriously with an adult-like frawn on his face.

He actually smiled when we finally arrived and got off the car. A little uncomfortable at the beginning after we got in the room, he remembered his favorite spot in front of the car rack in a short while and went directly there to play. I then said good-bye to him and explained once again that mom has to go to work but will come and pick him up right after work. I don't know how much he understood, but he didn't cry!!!!!!! And I waved good-bye and left. When I peeked through the window, he was actually looking at me through the window, too. And he didn't cry, either!!!!!!!!

Oh my good boy. Isn't he the most brave boy in the world?

And I am knocking on wood like crazy while I am typing this up, hoping that this second day miracle is for real and hope he can have a better day and at least cry less than yesterday.

Ciro's First Day at Miss Moreno's

Ciro actually did very well yesterday.

When I entered the door at around 3:30pm, he was sitting on Miss Hazel's lap and playing with a toy car. He turned his head seeing me when I called his name. A little bit swollen and red were his eyes. The moment he saw me, he started to make the face of crying. I thought he was gonna burst out, but no! He stopped right there and didn't even make a sound. He then almost ignored my existence and continued playing. Was he hurt so badly? I couldn't help wondering.

But what followed indicated that he was not too bad at all. He played with the various toys and even showed me how he learned new tricks to open some jar lids on a toy. He also did his funny "eye" trick when I asked about the little toy car's eyes and his own.

Miss hazel told me that he cried when I left but stopped when they turned on the celing fan in the infant room. He then cried occasionally here and there. And they eventually found out that there were two spots in the big play room which Ciro likes. He would not cry around those two spots (one next to a rack of toy cars and another next to boxes of blocks) but would start weeping whenever taken away. He especially hated the kitchen. So they ended up feeding him in the play room also. He had a yogurt at 11am and some rice at lunch.

At nap time he was taken to the infant room. But he cried as soon as he was put down in his small crib. Miss Mareno had to hold him in front of his favorite spot in the play room (the one next to the blocks) until he finally fell asleep around 1pm. Transferred into the crib, he was waken up by the lights at 3pm with the other older kids. The moment he saw Miss Moreno entering the room, tears came out again. The cry stoppend after Miss Moreno changed him and gave him a fresh wipe and some lotion. Oh, he poo-pooed after his nap, too. :-)

He then had a little apple sauce for his afternoon snack and some cheerios (his familiar Quan1 Quan1) and had been staying in front of the 2nd favorite spot in the playroom (next to the rack of toy cars) ever since. And that was where I saw him when I went to pick him up.

He even waved bye-bye to the teachers when we left!

I sang all the way home to him and he enjoyed going home so much as expeceted. His rest of the day was cheerful. He was making all kinds of noises with a joyful tone until he had his regular 8:30pm night sleep. His appetite was not bad, either. Thinking that he didn't eat much at Miss Moreno's, I gave him a yogurt upon arriving hom. He was more than cooperative. Guessing that he might still be hungry, I offered him a chocolate cookie (Oops, should I?) and crackers afterwards, and he liked them both! He even asked more when he finished his bites. :-)) the 6:30pm dinner was OK if not perfect. He resisted as usually in the beginning but there were a couple of episodes that went quite smooth.

So there we go. Ciro had his first-day day care experience. He should earn big applause.

Set to fly

It is Ciro's first official day at a family day care.

Dad and mom accompanied him to get familiar with the environment last Friday and then Mom stayed with him for another morning on Monday. I wished to stay with him longer so that he wound't feel left alone all of a sudden but the teachers said it should be better just let go. The longer I stayed, the more he'd believe mom should be around all the time.

So there he is, crying. And mom left weeping, too.

Is it time to set the small baby to fly already? Will he understand that mom should not be around all the time and learn to play with other children? He has been an independent boy and was able to play by himself for a long time. But that was when mom was in sight. He is always a mommy's little boy. I really am not confident whether he can adjust to this abrupt change or not at such a young age.

All I can do is to pray and hope he don't get hurt in his feeling. Hope his little mind knows that mommy wish to be at his aside all the time but one day he will want to fly away, too.

Sigh, this is heartbreaking.